The Truth

The truth is
I'm scared

Scared I'll get hurt again

Scared I'll hurt someone again

Scared You won't protect my heart

Scared You'll let it happen again

An exercise in faith

Is that all You ask of me?

Should I take a chance

If only to prove that I trust You?

That I'm not afraid You won't protect me?

A step

Even if I'd rather not take it

A path

Even if I don't believe it goes anywhere

A statement of trust

Even if I don't really believe it

The truth is

I'd rather be safe from the possibility of failure

Than risk seeing another promise unfulfilled

I'd rather convince myself that I don't want it

Than risk having it just beyond my fingertips again

The truth is

I'm stubborn

Maybe I think I'm hurting You

Or protecting myself

Maybe deep down, or not so deep

I'm terrified

The truth is

I want to trust You again

Trust You in this

The truth is

You didn't fail me

And I didn't fail You

I was never off Your path

I never shocked or dismayed You

You never let me go

You never stopped guiding my steps

Guide me now

As I place my heart

Back into Your hands once again