The Truth

The truth is
I'm scared

Scared I'll get hurt again

Scared I'll hurt someone again

Scared You won't protect my heart

Scared You'll let it happen again

An exercise in faith

Is that all You ask of me?

Should I take a chance

If only to prove that I trust You?

That I'm not afraid You won't protect me?

A step

Even if I'd rather not take it

A path

Even if I don't believe it goes anywhere

A statement of trust

Even if I don't really believe it

The truth is

I'd rather be safe from the possibility of failure

Than risk seeing another promise unfulfilled

I'd rather convince myself that I don't want it

Than risk having it just beyond my fingertips again

The truth is

I'm stubborn

Maybe I think I'm hurting You

Or protecting myself

Maybe deep down, or not so deep

I'm terrified

The truth is

I want to trust You again

Trust You in this

The truth is

You didn't fail me

And I didn't fail You

I was never off Your path

I never shocked or dismayed You

You never let me go

You never stopped guiding my steps

Guide me now

As I place my heart

Back into Your hands once again

Trust and Mercy

Trust
Can I give you my heart
And trust that you'll treasure it?
Can I tell you what I feel
And trust that you'll understand?
Can I be myself
And trust that you'll love all of me?
Can I love with everything I am
And trust you to value that?

Mercy
If you see me when I'm not at my best
Will you not immediately write me off?
If I show a measure of weakness
Will you not take advantage?
If I stumble again when I'm trying so hard
Will you not find me wanting?
If I'm scared of the words you may say
Will you not crush me in the way only you can?

Trust and mercy
More than beauty
More than social grace
More than having it all together
More than being an angel of divine destiny
More than fulfilling some unrealistic ideal
More than cute glances and coy flirting
More than an enrapturing look in her eyes

I just want a friend
I just want solid ground beneath my feet
I just want someone who'll stick around
You don't need the perfect words
You just need to be there
It seems so simple, but it is so rare
Trust and mercy
Puts you head and shoulders above all others
And makes you more beautiful in my eyes than I can say